It’s time to get back to positivity!!! Day95
Oct 14, 2018
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this is my story and welcome to it yes
we're off again today
so I wanted to draw attention to that
because I hate I did get a comment the
other day about don't you ever like just
stayin home and having lazy days and to
be honest with you yes I do love lazy
days sometimes but because I am working
on my weight being more active is a
better thing for me because then I'm up
I'm moving around I have to get dressed
I've got to get the kids out the car you
know out to the doors and you know all
of that okay so you know yeah I do like
staying home like don't get me wrong I
do but also with a spouse that owns a
business especially the type of business
all he runs which is a car business he
is on the go with his business
like that's just clearly we're always on
the go because we're picking up cars
dropping cars off selling cars
delivering cars I mean it is a car it's
a business that's go go go go go so yeah
there are days where I would just feel
like I just want to stay home but
sometimes that's not feasible especially
like I said when you've got a husband
that owns a business sometimes those
things are not you just can't you know
and that's what we signed up for
when we took on this car business so you
know and
before I lost my wave or before I
started losing my weight now
not that I've lost volume but before I
started losing weight I was home all the
time I was homebound like literally I
was homebound for three years
technically I mean I would go places but
I really didn't drive because I had a
hard time fitting behind the will we
would go to the stores but I nine out of
ten stayed in the car and all he did all
the running in and out and if if it came
to a point where I could go into a store
that was only if a car was available so
now that I can get in and out and I
could take my kids in and out I it's a
whole new world for me and so it's
something new and I'm enjoying it and I
love it
and I love the independence II and I
love being able to you know go and do
some of the shopping for my husband
rather than him having to be the sole
responsible person to do the shopping
so yeah I do love lazy days at home
but I also have just entered such a new
lifespan change that I'm still getting
used to that and that makes any sense so
I'm not at all offended by the fact that
I was asked that I mean totally
understandable especially when you see
that I am on the go a lot but we are
also home quite a bit too and the kids
love being in the car they love their
audience sometimes it doesn't sound like
it but nine out of ten they do love
their outings they love being able to go
for our family drives and things like
that
so that just I just wanted to clarify
that second thing I wanted to clarify as
well is that it was brought to my
attention that you know it seems like
Jeremiah is you know he's got a lot of
responsibilities and that it seems like
he does a lot and that he seems
forgotten I did sit down with my son and
I did have a conversation with him
because it did shine light on something
that you know sometimes people on the
outside seen in I don't see those things
so I sat down with him and he's right
here in the front seat listening he is
aware of what it we have nothing to hide
but we you know I did talk to him and
you know and he did explain some
concerns that he had
about you know like feeling that
sometimes like you know he's not as
important which I really you know meet
Shh
where in the world okay I don't know
where it's coming from
hold on guys
no honey I'm not rolling it down I just
I heard sirens but I I really can't
figure out where I'm hearing them from
um anyways but you know I let him know
that he is always just as special and
just as loved as his brother and sister
and you know sometimes I think you know
we have basically a set of twins you
know and anybody with multiples will
understand how busy how busy you truly
truly truly become when you have
multiples and so it is very easy to not
forget any of your children but
sometimes it's easy for one to get kind
of faded in the back row because you
know your your attention is so on the
multiples because they're they've got a
lot of extra needs and that's kind of
where you know I am and all he is is
that we would never ever ever ever ever
love one child more than the other that
just would not happen but sometimes I
think it can happen where Jeremiah feels
like we're spending more time with
awareness right and and sometimes that
could possibly be true and it's not that
we're intentionally doing it it's just
that sometimes we have so much we're
happening to spread ourselves across and
Maya's an older one so a lot of times we
leave him to you know kind of tend to
his some of his own needs and that's not
okay either so we sat down and talked
he's in front of us honey we sat down
and talked and
I heard his concerns and I validate his
concerns and his worries and you know me
and Ollie are going to do a hundred
times better on you know making sure
that we are very sensitive to the matter
and sensitive to him and to his needs
just as well as Orrin is for us and you
know and that he is gonna get special
time with you know Ollie and spend time
with him and get that son you know son
and dad time that he needs and same with
me you know he's we're gonna start
making more time I think to spend
one-on-one care time with him because
they think that's very important and
again I appreciate the concern and I
appreciate it being brought to my
attention because like I said sometimes
people seen from the outside and can see
a clearer picture than the person that's
inside the actual picture itself so I
again do not take offence for anybody
bringing those things up because you
know I think that it definitely was a
great starting point of a conversation
for me and all need to have with
Jeremiah and to realize that Jeremiah is
gonna be 11 and opted in April he is
becoming a preteen and preteens are
gonna need extra attention too so I just
think that you know we're such an area
of life where you know we've got such a
spectrum of different age you know we've
got a two-year-old a three-year-old and
a ten year old you know and this coming
year it's you know same thing words
except it's gonna be a four year old a
three year old and an eleven year old so
as exciting that is as it is that we're
entering into preteen
and we're exiting out of baby now we're
at a whole new era where it's like oh
okay we got to figure this all out and
so yeah it's it's gonna be a fun
challenge I think for us all but
definitely definitely I know that we
definitely need to take more extra time
loving care time with with Jeremiah so
that he knows that he is always just as
important as everybody else in our life
that he is not anything less of or that
he would ever come up something less of
so anyways does that sound good my my
good good good
and and also you know he has a tendency
to switch my camera over a little bit he
has a tendency to always look very
cranky my son has always looked this way
and I won't put in some baby pictures of
him
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where he will have the most biggest
glare a like this like don't mess with
me and in reality he's really happy but
Jeremiah just has that feature of face
of don't mess with me I'm a grump
yeah and in reality he really is a very
happy boy it's just doesn't show all the
time because sometimes he's just extra
extra lovingly with his his facial
expressions of me but no I just wanted
to to make that clear to you that he
doesn't sometimes look sad and it's
really in reality you because I'll ask
him I'll be like honey what's wrong
you're like nothing I'm like honey
what's wrong nothing I'm like well you
look sad no I'm not but so anyways yes I
just wanted to make that point it out I
don't have a soda honey that's crooked
but anyways so now we are on our way to
drop off a van in fact Ali's in front of
me with the van so we're dropping that
off and then we got to come back home
pick up another vehicle drop that one
off at this lot because we're trying to
clean out the cars that are piling up in
front of our house so that way we can
get them over to his yard out that just
hurt and then other than that I really
don't know what we have in stored if we
have anything else I do know that I need
to I'm gonna work on a DIY today
actually I think I'm gonna try and work
on two DIYs which will keep me quite
busy so I've got that I'm gonna work on
later but and film those but other than
that I think that's all we have really
going on and I don't think we have to
too much today going on
so but I will check in with you guys in
a little bit and show you guys where
we're at what we're up to and we'll go
from there but the wind is like this is
like an ideal day this is a perfect
perfect fall day
well II just ran into Costco really
quick I don't know except the what he
was grabbing environment sometimes I
have no clue what my husband is up to
he just has his own little still a
little mind that he does his own little
thing lot baby why
Oh Costco well hold on
so anyways I'm not exactly sure what
he's doing but anyways and oh I will
drop in my weight here I'm up two pounds
you guys but configuring considering
that I was I I feel kind of like I've
been retaining water the last couple of
days it's not really sure why other than
I have been stuck on eating its skinny
skinny pop and it's a popcorn but it's
160 calories and it's a lot of lime
something oh it's one of my favorite cuz
I love anything with flying flavor
anything with lime flavor but it
contains a lot of salt and I am thinking
that I am retaining water from that just
because I can fill it in my feet which
is a bummer so I am up two pounds but
it's not I mean I'm not really I'm not
mad about it because I know
what I need to do to fix that and one
thing is you know mean only were talking
this morning that I'm gonna really stop
eating after dinner no more snacks if I
want something I can have my water
that's my flavored water that's like my
soda today I did go to Dutch brothers
but I went back to my teas which are
zero calorie so I've had we've had a
couple like I've had this style it's
basically the same thing except it has a
bigger nozzle like it this one's his but
it has a you know but I don't like these
ones so much because they like they make
like I don't know why I just can't drink
out of these install but anyways so the
other day we were at Costco and I seen
this kind I was like my gosh I really
want one like died and it has the strong
stuff and it's the fast still so it's
the same thing and he got my ax 1 to
Jerry let me see yours sewers
this one's Maya's so mr. Maya bear got
one and I got one yeah
Maya was excited because see I already
have my tea in there but he does he can
take like water and stuff to school and
so I like him to take like ice water and
then he just puts it in his backpack and
do you get to take your waters to like
do you to get to take it to your desk or
you leave it in your backpack desk so he
gets to take it to his desk and drink
out of it so that's nice I'm so excited
I am way excited seeing the nice thing
about like this one Maya is you can put
juice in it with ice and it will stay
that way and nobody will ever know that
you even have J's juice in it
so anyways now we stopped at Winco
really quick cuz all I needed to run in
and see if we can find suckers for the
kids because they are dying for suckers
so we're stopping its Winco and then I'm
gonna go and get them something too we
are not gonna yell like that we're gonna
get a bite to eat for the kids and Maya
can you please help her for her sandal
on um anyways and then we will I'm gonna
have salad for dinner tonight
crab salad and then the kids were gonna
eat hamburgers and all he's just gonna
eat something simple cuz he's gonna go
and hang out with a friend for a little
bit what we're gonna do I'm excited
though I was so excited when he brought
those for me in Maya I was a commerce
weed so anyways I hope you guys are
having a wonderful wonderful Saturday
it's just it's so beautiful here I go
home but I know we need to go home
because we've got things that need to be
done around there and so anyways good
evening I look like a serious hot mess
that it is
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oMG well welcome to Saturday night I
have my glasses off I was what I day so
I just got done filming and other craft
corner Tuesday I'm so excited for this
one yeah it's so pretty I can't wait to
show you guys what it looks like um
anyways uh what was I gonna say to you
guys well so I know whom and I prepared
for the stuff to do the crafts corner
because that takes a little bit of time
ollie ha
today's his day to go have his time
if anybody has a Costco yeah I need to
go and get one of these it's two for its
two for twenty it comes in gray there's
multiple different colors but they're
the one that we got was grey in this
color it keeps your ice cold for 24
hours it is or it you could put hot in
it too if you don't want to put cold in
it but let me tell you it is the best
thing I love it in this the suction for
once I burned myself again you guys
it hurts really bad um anyway yes I am a
mess
um anyways so me and oli were talking
yesterday because I was like you know my
headaches are still really bad now mind
you today I did not have a headache
let's let's take track of this I do not
have a headache today I did not have to
take any medicine for a headache nothing
and I had a tea I had a diet green tea
sugar-free raspberry from Dutch brothers
I don't know if the green tea has
caffeine in it in fact I need to ask
them the next time I go I'm gonna try
and remember to ask them if it has
caffeine because if it does think nyng
nyng nyng nyng nyng nyng then that's
probably why I'm having caffeine
headaches because if I'm not having a
tea or coffee but I looked up my
calories for the coffee that I have been
drinking 328 calories you guys for the
coffee I been drinking no wonder I
gained two extra pounds this week so I
am NOT not gonna be drinking those
coffees anymore so I am trying to figure
out an alternative for when I'm out and
I want a coffee but I need to find
something that is very cheap cheap cheap
cheap cheap cheap cheap cheap in
calories to like almost zero calories if
there's anything such as that so anyways
I went ahead and I got my tea and it was
perfect I put it in this what is it
called
thermo flask and this thing has just
I've had ice in it since we got it
boob all since since I put my tea in it
out when we went to Winco that was that
like three o'clock and it is now going
on almost 7:00 or it is Sun and it still
flies
um so anyways so we were talking last
night about my headaches and stuff and I
told him I said honey I really think
there was something going on with my
eyes I said I really think that my
eyesight something's
Dean is really going wrong with my eyes
so he said okay he said well you know we
need to get it checked I'm like yeah I
got him checked last year yeah last year
I got him checked and they they haven't
changed enough that it made it worth
going and spending the money for new
glasses but I went ahead today and I
took the plunge I called Costco and so
for the exam it's 84 the frames they
start at 60 which I won't get the
cheapest frames only reason being is
because I need something a little bit
more durable because of my kids they've
had tendencies of sitting on them or
stepping on them if I take them off or
even two seconds and I I will put
insurance on them as well because
clearly no I don't I don't play like
that so what I will end up doing is I
will I have just been getting eaten up
bad I don't know what's going on
here's a anyways um I will end up I'll
keep these ones but I'll put these ones
away so just in case god forbid
something happens at least I've got
something that I can at least slip on
until I can get like my new glasses
fixed again or something if something
happened but these ones that I have now
they're transitions so from the sunlight
it will turn them into sunglasses but I
personally I would rather not have that
this time so I'm opting to not have them
put in transition and just have the
regular glasses so what it okay I'm
gonna ask you guys for people that wear
glasses and anybody that has transitions
that knows what I'm talking about where
when you're in sunlight they turn to
sunglasses and then when you go back
into regular
house light or whatever stores they'll
turn back into our dealer glasses what
do you guys suggest see I I have these
transitions for two years and I've never
had a problem with them but the problem
that I have had is that the when I go
into like so when I go from outside into
inside and my glasses are sunglasses I
have a hard time seen for a few seconds
because everything's really dark until
they transition back to regular glasses
now they won't turn into sunglasses
clearly when I'm just sitting in a white
like a house light or whatever it has to
be like the Rays of the Sun and stuff
like that and it somehow it couldn't it
tells or something like that but add
that to my glasses it's a hundred extra
dollars automatically otherwise it's
sixty right yeah for single for a single
lens it's 60 for transition single lens
it's a hundred I do not have bifocals
and I don't foresee ever have to you
have bifocals at least anytime soon and
if I had to Bob my vocals I'd probably
cry just because I don't know if I could
ever seriously ever get used to bifocals
so anyways with that I have that
appointment on Monday at 12:30 so I'm
gonna go in and I'll have them check my
eyes and stuff but last night we took
laughs we took my glasses off and all he
wrote on a piece of paper like fairly
good-sized letters what I want what I
should be able to see and I can see them
pretty well with my glasses but when I
took off my glasses I was like honey I
can't I can't see anything that you're
holding up it's all
I have really bad glass are really bad
eyes I never had bad eyes like I had
told you guys before until I got
pregnant with Omar and got diabetes then
my eyesight went real quick so and I
started wearing glasses and say you know
two thousand thirteen or fourteen I'm
trying to think I got pregnant 14 I'll
say 13 is when I started wearing em 2013
so I mean I'm but like right now I'm
looking right at my phone and it's
complete blur like I cannot see I can't
see anything
nada so I'm hoping that they don't have
to die like my eyes but I'm pretty sure
they probably will which is no fun but
it is what it is so I don't know we'll
see
but that's on Monday I have my
counseling on Monday I'm really sorry I
don't know why I'm yawning so bad oh I
think that was it it just was a day like
I cuz I did that craft got that filmed
and all you took off for a little bit
and had his daddy time which was a nice
I'm glad he was able to take that time
for himself tomorrow is my time so I'm
not really 100% sure what I'm gonna do
I'm not gonna do any shopping tomorrow
because I clearly just need to like
chill out a little bit with a shopping
so I'm not really sure what I'm gonna do
tomorrow I might just go to the park I
need to cut
tools for my for my fall wreath that I'm
gonna be auctioning off oh that reminds
me
okay so let me get out my calendar mod
get on the calendar but I will mark it
on here - okay I am going to be doing
the full wreath giveaway biker babe you
will get yours first I promise I am
going to do the full wreath giveaway on
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let me see here
yeah I'm gonna do it on the 26 and I
will have it mailed out the first so you
whoever wins it gets a good month with
it during that time I will also be
getting together the next rate that will
be up for grabs
which the next one is going to be a
wintry so that will be fun and it will
be fun because I think I'm gonna start
doing themed wreaths so meaning like
okay we have well I don't know how that
works well I mean I guess yeah it's
still at work kind of because I'm trying
to think well if I do holidays it's
better because there's never two
holidays technically and one month so
like if I do see October well October's
is kind of a given because we did breast
cancer awareness so November is gonna be
the fall giveaway or the fall wreath I
could do a Thanksgiving one but I've
already got this stuff for the fall so I
think that's probably and I mean yeah
that's technically you could use that
for fall December I'm doing a winter
wreath and January I think January
December January because I mean it's New
Year's but I don't know
I don't know about January exactly yet
because there's nothing really of us I
mean there's it's the new year but I
don't think I want to do yeah I don't
think I want to I'm a little bit I don't
know what to do okay because I almost
have to do the race a month ahead to
make it to where you guys would get them
before that next holiday is I'm thinking
so if I did because I'm trying to see
because if I did
okay September's gone off till we're in
October October we did the breast cancer
awareness but I almost need to do the
fall giveaway
and then November I would do December's
December's I would do January January
would do Valentine's March I or February
I would do st. Patrick's C or may I or
marked I would do April I would do
Easter or I could do spring even spring
would be fine
may I would probably do I don't know I
don't know if I would do a Mother's Day
wreath or if I would do something I
don't know
dropping my comments below some ideas of
how I should do that you guys are great
on giving me ideas should I do like the
month of wreath or should I do where
it's gonna be the month ahead so you
guys would be receiving Christmas winter
wreath in November because you guys
would have already received your fall
wreath in October does that make sense
because October normally it should have
been breast cancer awareness or a
Halloween but I would rather do the
breast cancer awareness for myself for
the sake of what it stands for and then
October do November's so that would be
far fall and then November I would do
December's which would be for winter
December's I would do January which
would be I don't know what celebration I
guess and I could I I bet you what I
could do is somehow do the wreath in
January for New Year's but I can do it
somehow where the year could come off so
then every year if you guys whoever wins
it could technically just put in their
own year so like this year would be 2019
so next year whoever wins the wreath you
could
technically look for a 20/20 and put it
in the wreath that would work so that's
an idea I think I'm gonna play around
with it and just see how how I want to
distribute that decisions decisions
decisions but we won't figure that out
so but for this giveaway I'm going to do
the giveaway on the 26 so that I have a
few days to get it out to you guys by
November so mark that down I'm marking
you guys down maybe
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why is your pan when you always need it
swear used to hear that all the time oh
goodness okay I'm not gonna forget so
it's October 26 5 o'clock my time 5 p.m.
October 26th I will be alive to do the
fall giveaway and by per biker babe I
will have yours out previous to that
because I am a fool when it comes to
this bead
but anyways yes yes yes yes other than
that it was a pretty broad a I'm
actually kind of had a nice lazy day
after we got done doing her running
around my kids finished my water great
so anyways that is my vlog for you guys
I hope you totally enjoyed tomorrow I
don't know what
have in store for myself because it's
mommy day tomorrow so you guys will
definitely be going ahead with me and
seeing what trouble I can get into maybe
we might go look at Target at the dollar
spot but how is gonna be so much trouble
because then I want to buy I don't know
we'll see we will see where we go but I
hope you guys enjoy I hope you guys
enjoyed this vlog and I will check in
with you guys bright and shiny tomorrow
morning until then sweet dreams you guys